Finally moved on

Masaya na ang aura ko ngayon. Wala nang "iyak sa unan" effect. Kapag dumating pala ung isang taong mas ok, mas mahal ka, makakalimutan mo lahat ng sakit na naramdaman mo non. Mabuti nalang. ;)

Heartbreak 101

I just made a wrong choice, a huge mistake. I shouldn't have choose you. THAT HURT anyway .

Losing someone you love is the most painful thing in life. It hurts when you know that you did everything so the relationship will work-out despite the long distance and lack of communication. But in the end, it was all for nothing. Imagine how difficult it was being in a long distance relationship for almost a year worrying about your boyfriend's safety.

Time, effort, money; all those sacrifices were wasted. I suppose that part of my life is called being blinded or lets just say, being stupid. Those were absolutely the most miserable year of my life. I should have listen to my instincts. Knowing that if it does not make me happy, then it is time to let go. I should have ended it a long time ago but I was too scared. However, after being through what I’ve gone through, it wasn’t as bad as I thought it could possibly be.

Now that it is finally over, I can breathe again and I actually feel/look younger. All those worrying for his safety gave me wrinkles (lol). Moreover, I am also thankful to finally be with someone who actually makes me happy for the simple reason that we are more compatible in every way possible.

Wherever my Ex is, I wish him happiness. It’s hard to rid off someone who has been a significant part of my life for almost a year. Even though what he did to me was cruel and wrong, I forgive him. I just don’t have any reason to stay mad most especially because I am happy now with someone better.

JUST ANOTHER SORROW

That moment when you waited for a long time but he just took it for granted. The time that i should spend my life without worrying him, enjoying a stress free life, entertaining suitors, having a time with my family, and lastly, the money that i should spend for my own good.

I hate this feeling that you are so clueless about everything. The day that you are expecting him to call or receive a message telling that he miss me a lot. But sadly, it all goes to dissapointment.

My mind keep on asking WHY he left me hanging? WHAT I've done wrong? WHERE are your promises?

Just want you to know that you ruined my life! If i could just CTRL+Z, undo or redo it, I should have not choose you. That hurt so much anyway...

ITS A SORRY

"Will it be YES? Or will it be..SORRY"
-I Don't Want to Wait by Paula Cole


 Umasa ako na sa Feb. 14 babatiin nya ko pero wala akong nareceive kahit text o tawag man lang.

Sad to say, hindi sya nagwork. I tried to talk to him, pero hindi nya ako pinuntahan.

to be continued...

I just miss the old days, the old you, the old us.

minsan, sinasabi ko sa sarili ko, sana hindi ka nalang nag-kadete. Ok na nga ung dating ikaw eh

• Sweet 
• Thoughtful 
• Caring 
• Joker 
• Pala-ngiti
• Laging may time para magtext/tumawag
• Yung pag sobrang lungkot ko,i-chcheer up mo ko
• Kung maka-libre, wagas

Pero ngayon..unti unti ,nagbabago ka na. BAKEEEET! Ang iniisip ko nalang, baka walang time o busy ka lang sa loob . Pero bakit naman ung iba, effort kung effort. NAKAKAINGGIT kaya! Valentines day wala man lang akong natanggap na text or tawag from you.. kaya aun, NGANGA!

Sa totoo lang, mahirap magmove-on, kumbaga sa kanta , “Cause you’re everywhere to me..and when i close my eyes, its you i see” yung lahat ng ka-emohang kanta, nakakarelate ka, yung maiinggit ka sa mga mag-jowa sa paligid… ang hirap nun promise at ang pinakamasakit sa lahat, nasaktan ka na nga, masasaktan ka pa ulit..

Well, hindi pa nmn confirmed..maxado lang akong advance kung magisip. Ang dami dami na kasing sign. Sign na tama na..tigilan na kita.. Feeling ko tuloy, para akong si KC Conception kung mag-emote at depress na depress kay Piolo Pascual na kulang nalang, magpagupit ako ng buhok at magpa-interview kay Boy Abunda.

Ang sakit sakit na kasi..SOBRA! ang hirap lang itago tong nararamdaman ko..nakakabaliw. Kaya dito ko nalang nilagay. Mas ok. mas private.. walang magaalala, walang magsasabi ng “kawawa” “ok lang yan” “hahaha! buti nga!”

Kung hindi man kami ang para sa isa’t isa .. naku! patay na! “Namumugtong mata” nanaman ang drama ko..at promise, mamimiss kita. At kung tayo man, ai tarayyy ililibre ko ang tropa mo

ang hinaing ni Ijin…bow

Coco Martir, Karmi Martir, Ricky Martir, Martir Nievera

I'm just a girl whose dreaming to find my true love, my soul mate. Yun bang mala-fairytale ang ending. 19 years na ko single.. hindi na maganda to.. Akala ko "HE"S THE ONE" Pero bakit ganito ako ngayon?? *NGANGA*

nagmahal
naghintay
umasa

yan lang naman mga pinag-gagawa ko..


And the worst, wala man lang paramdam o sabi sabi na "It's over" "Ayoko na" "Hindi na kita mahal"

Sometimes, I ask God why..
hindi ko naman dapat nararanasa itong mga kalokohang to dahil mabait naman akong nilalang

Nangako naman kasi nya..ako naman si tanga na naniwala.. ba yan!

Kaya ko naman maghintay ..3 years? sus!pero ikaw ang bumitaw.. ikaw ang sumuko